I don't know what I want. I dont' know what I need. I have given forgiveness where forgiveness is not due. I have been hurt and used and I think everything just sucks. Five more pounds down another 30 to go. I put on my old jeans today and they slid right off onto the floor. It felt great. I actually had someone not recignize me today because I had lost so much wieght. it feels great.
I let him back in my life and gave him my forgiveness and gave him a second chance even though he doesn't deserve one and hurt me bad but I did screw around on him. I told him if he fucks up or I think he is a sucky boyfriend he will know it and I am not going to put up with his shit. He has actually been decent. It is weird for me for my phone to ring and it be him.. Yay effort. I really don't care. I really don't put faith in people. I guess I am just waiting for people to fail me. Fuck em. I have got like maybe 10 people in this world who matter. The rest suck You know what. I don't care. I feel like I should just be evil. I should do whatever I want.
I want to breathe.

Oh No You Didn't!!
I dont even know what to say to you. You know better. And I KNOW KNOW KNOW you arent talking about jeremy...and the real reason you want to move to tunica comes out. You really need to focus on YOU and get to where you need to be in life. If you dont start trying to be a reputable work history and rental history the real world is going to hit you like a brick wall and I don't want to see that happen to you. You're too smart for this shit!
» lyndeep on 2007-08-24 08:32:53

Forgiveness doesn't need to be due for us to give it; it shouldn't be conditional.

I hope things work out with the boy.. and that you rediscover your faith in humanity.
» Dilated on 2007-08-24 10:24:25

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